Today is my husband’s grandmother’s “memorial service.” I don’t know what’s so bad about calling it a funeral.
I have been to so many funerals in my 41years of life.
My great grandfather when I was 6.
A friend whose step/dad …
Emotional Personal Blogs
My Mother’s Death Triggered the Bulk of My Deconstruction Journey
My mother’s death triggered the bulk of my deconstruction.
It was a long time ago now. 12-13 years. I was attending a Pentecostal church while she was sick and dying. I changed churches to attend a grace-based church just 4 months before she died, and the Pastor (Santo …
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I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP
I have wanted to be a writer since I was nine years old.
That’s a long time.
Thirty-two years to be exact.
I started writing my first novel when I was eleven. That one was never completed. But by the time I was eighteen (2000/2001), I had written two substantial …
Fear of Insignificance
At 4am this morning I had the profound revelation that I am deeply afraid of my own insignificance. I am almost 40 years old, and when I was 17 - my last year of high school - I told my class that my greatest fear was that I would get to age forty and I wouldn't have fulfilled my dreams. These …
Formed by Sexual Trauma
I wrote my first rape novel when I was about 16yrs old. It was my unconscious way of processing and coping with sexual trauma. I wasn't aware that I was molested as a toddler, but everything points in that direction. I have no proof and I don't know who the perpetrator was, but I have my …